All the memories came back..

I could not go back to sleep last night. Got up around 2:00 am. I was starving becasue I didn’t have a good, fullfilling dinner. 2:45 am, I was so hungry that I told Tim if he could go and buy me spicy Mexican food. Poor Tim, he did. He played his game till 4:00 am and went to sleep. I could not sleep. I was awake till 7:45 am, and forced myself to sleep. Got up every hour. Finally I got up around 10 am. Now I feel rested (after that nap).
Today is Mother’s day. I thought about my mom for couple of days. I missed her so much. Last night I thought about how sick she was when we went to visit her in Nepal. I still have strong memories about it. The hospital room that she stayed was upside down L shoped (Facing left), my dad was sleeping on the wooden uncomfortable long chair, mom was sleeping on the bed. As soon as we went inside, she was so happy to see me and Tim and so was my dad. I could still remember her face. I knew she was in pain but she smiled, she was so happy. She told Tim to sit down. I told Tim that in Nepal, we sit on the floor. So, he did but my mom wanted him to sit on the chair. It was funny, he almost sat on the dirty floor. I found out that my mom’s kidney was not working. I didn’t know that becasue of this, she was sowllen. She could not eat anything. My sister was so stubborn. She wanted mom to have something but I knew mom had such a difficulty swallowing anything. I remember one time when I gave her 1 teaspoon of liqued, she drank it and it made me so happy. On that moment,I knew that she is not going to die,she will survive. She tried to talked with us but she could not. Made me so sad. It is so painful to write. I think I should stop now. When I am ready, I will write more.